There's a place in the darkness that I used to cling to it presses harsh hope against time
In the absence of martyrs there's a presence of thieves who only want to rob you blind
They steal away any sense of peace though I'm a king I'm a king on my knees
And I know they are wrong when they say I am strong As the darkness covers me
So turn on the light and reveal all the glory
I am not afraid
To bare all my weakness knowing in meekness
I have a kingdom to gain
Where there is peace and love in the light, in the light
Oh I am not afraid
To let Your light shine bright in my life, in my life
Oh I... am, I...
There are ghosts from my past who've owned more of my soul than I thought I had given away
They linger in closets and under my bed and in pictures less proudly displayed
A great fool in my life I have been have squandered till pallid and thin
Hung my head in shame and refused to take blame for the darkness I know I've let win
Can you hear me? (repeat 6x)
Well I've never been much for the baring of soul in the presence of any man
I'd rather keep to myself all safe and secure in the arms of a sinner I am
Could it be that my worth should depend by the crimson stained grace on a hand
And like a lamp on a hill Lord I pray in Your will to reveal all of You that I can
There's a place in the darkness that I used to cling to
It presses harsh hope against time...
-Jennifer Knapp, Song "Martyrs and Thieves", Kansas CD
Can anyone out there relate??? This is me...point blank. Pondering God's grace and my own wretchedness is a very sobering endeavor.
Ever felt like a soldier with limbs missing on the beachhead trying to fight and having no more bullets, no gun, no armor, no way to save yourself? Then feeling the Holy Spirit pick you up, put you on His shoulder, turn His back to the enemy so their bullets hit Him while he carries back to safety so you can be restored and sent back into battle? This is the Christian life...the way of the Barbarian...welcome to the battle...engage!
You can find this song on Youtube. It's amazingly accurate...